Hi there, I am the most messed up person ever. I make really stupid decisions and I take really rash actions, like in the spur of the moment. Although I think about my action for like 2 seconds and then go ahead and act out either ways. Do I end up regretting them, most times YES but do I learn my lesson, hell to the nah. I end up doing the same things again but in a more advanced level. I don’t know why but it’s like I am on some sort of a never ending cycle. But the one I thing I like about this, is the fact that I take responsibility for my actions, as much as I try to pin it on my external environment I still give myself the “oh ye faithful pep talk”
I am so grateful for the kind of person I am and the woman I have become. I am grateful for the good and bad that has shaped me into this weird person. I am glad I have felt hurt, pain, pure joy, extreme happiness, depression, super duper crush/obsession, regret, sadness, hunger, fiery anger, dumb, stupid and oh there is no way I was thinking straight when I did that. I believe deeply in self love and body positivity, I mean no one is going to appreciate you if you don’t appreciate yourself first and even when they do it just seems like they are trying to be polite or nice. It’s ridiculous!
I am literally the laziest person ever; it’s so bad that my mouth gets lazy, no matter how hungry I am and I feel tired, I rather sleep than eat. I hate ironing with a passion, I can’t stand folding clothes, my wardrobe is a total disaster, I am pretty sure there is a mountain lion trapped somewhere under the clothes. But in everything I am very grateful for the opportunity to live through this wonderful journey. It is amazing and incredible how right now some people are between life and death, some are already dead and some just don’t want to stay alive no more. I am grateful for the experiences over the years, the craziness, the mushiness (if there is a word like that) the backslides and the upliftment. I am grateful for all the beautiful humans who have made an impact in life (even the ones I want throttle most of the time)
I am especially grateful for the opportunity to be human, to make mistakes, to step toes, to be envious of my neighbour’s size of pizza, to cuss, to throw shade and mostly to be petty. I am not the most likable person in the world; half the time when someone meets me they say a little prayer but I am grateful for who I am. I can’t deny that I am flawed in every way possible and I have dark thoughts most of the time but then I would not be me without the drama. A very special person so dear to my heart always says “I need to cleanse you”….
I totally agree with them, you don’t see my kind everyday loool. I am not as rich as the Kardashians or even the Dangotes but I am satisfied with the all the favours, good health, blessings and the gift of life. It’s all there is and nothing more. So no matter what you are going through be grateful, keep your head up and always say to yourself “This too shall pass”. I am not going all religion on you, it is just a mantra that has worked wonders for me, be grateful for the little that you have, be grateful for the abundance that you have, be grateful in advance for what you are yet to have because trust me, you ain’t seen nothing yet.